Juancho atempts to make sense of it all...

Saturday, September 12, 2009

New record!!!!!

I didnt take me a month to do another post!! good for me!!

I am having seiously writers block right now...

I think my next filming Is my dexter parody in celebration of the new season

oh yea i have re kindled my love for filmmaking

Monday, August 24, 2009

From the wise words of Mr. Bolton

"Tell me how am I supposed to live without you
Now that I've been lovin' you so long
How am I supposed to live without you
How am I supposed to carry on
When all that I've been livin' for is gone"
This song is Definately describes my life right now...I always wondered why its so hard for me to move on...To qoute the song again..."How am i suppose to carry on...When all that I've been Living for is gone..." Everything I knew, everything I based my life on for the last couple years...The sacrifices the blood and tears...all of it gone...And now I am left here wondering, What now? How am I suppose to go back to the life I knew before her when my life never really began till I met her...

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

A lil Poetry for the soul

If You Forget Me

I want you to knowone thing. You know how this is: if I look at the crystal moon, at the red branch of the slow autumn at my window, if I touch near the fire the impalpable ash or the wrinkled body of the log, everything carries me to you, as if everything that exists, aromas, light, metals, were little boats that sail toward those isles of yours that wait for me. Well, now, if little by little you stop loving me I shall stop loving you little by little. If suddenly you forget me do not look for me, for I shall already have forgotten you. If you think it long and mad, the wind of banners that passes through my life, and you decide to leave me at the shore of the heart where I have roots, remember that on that day, at that hour, I shall lift my arms and my roots will set off to seek another land. But if each day, each hour, you feel that you are destined for me with implacable sweetness, if each day a flower climbs up to your lips to seek me, ah my love, ah my own, in me all that fire is repeated, in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten, my love feeds on your love, beloved, and as long as you live it will be in your arms without leaving mine. Pablo Neruda

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

"knowing that you are out there, thinking bout me,
caring about me makes me feel safe.
All my fear all my yesterdays Just washes away
and only hope reminds with the promise of your embrace.
You make me thank God
for all the mistakes I've made
because it brought me to the path
that lead me to you.
And when we finally come together
I want you to hold me ....
Until there is only You and I and now......."
How I Met Your Mother...

Monday, July 13, 2009

2 years since last post...

I find it very Odd that everytime Im Going Thru rough times I always come back here....

So lets do a quick reCap...met a Met a girl she moved in, we were head over heels for each other...2 years later same thing happens with all long term after that year it can either keep goin or not. It didnt, she wanted different things and wasn't willing to work on our relationship...and thats pretty much it...

Had a job i loved, again the first year, moved up to management, I hated it especially my boss. he is honestly the one person i will go out and murder...and with todays amazing shows like csi and dexter murder can be done very easily...

So i quit...

To recap 2 Long term relationship broken up with in weeks of each other...Losing two loves weeks from each other...Left with nothing....Want something that will fuck with your head ...Try doin that....